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I guess I owe myself beer for being my own 1000th visitor. not tough considering I just finished bottling this year's "Olbaid ESB" in honor of dv8it. it'll be ready to drink in a couple weeks.
feeling very knocked outside of myself now -- at least two levels of recursion deep. my wife has gone to bed over half an hour ago and I finished cleaning the bottling equipment and carboy twenty minutes ago.
finished off a bomber of 2004 full sail bourbon barrel imperial porter which I believe came from Ben's collection but at this point I'm not entirely sure.
the integration continues and I'm still conflicted on how far to pursue this. I predict an asymptotic decrease in the amount of Ben's things versus time. the beer will be consumed and integrated. the computers will be retasked and integrated. it is the external areas where we did not overlap which will be the last to be dealt with. things like mountain biking and satellite hacking and xbox... linux.
I have to make a judgement regarding "stuff." so much of it was disposed of quickly and with prejudice. seemingly meaningless stuff like a hornet t-shirt which is now either in a landfill or being worn by a homeless child. the meaning without a context is all that is left.
I have been going through his hard drives, attempting to separate the chaff and asking myself if I should preserve his squid cache thinking maybe I'll find some more clues. clues to what? to his death? to his mind? his IRC logs are like salt rubbed into a wound, indicating all the times I blew him off hanging out on weeknights to have a beer. I can only console myself in thinking that we were starting to get together on a more frequent basis.
he died with my keys in his pocket.
feeling very knocked outside of myself now -- at least two levels of recursion deep. my wife has gone to bed over half an hour ago and I finished cleaning the bottling equipment and carboy twenty minutes ago.
finished off a bomber of 2004 full sail bourbon barrel imperial porter which I believe came from Ben's collection but at this point I'm not entirely sure.
the integration continues and I'm still conflicted on how far to pursue this. I predict an asymptotic decrease in the amount of Ben's things versus time. the beer will be consumed and integrated. the computers will be retasked and integrated. it is the external areas where we did not overlap which will be the last to be dealt with. things like mountain biking and satellite hacking and xbox... linux.
I have to make a judgement regarding "stuff." so much of it was disposed of quickly and with prejudice. seemingly meaningless stuff like a hornet t-shirt which is now either in a landfill or being worn by a homeless child. the meaning without a context is all that is left.
I have been going through his hard drives, attempting to separate the chaff and asking myself if I should preserve his squid cache thinking maybe I'll find some more clues. clues to what? to his death? to his mind? his IRC logs are like salt rubbed into a wound, indicating all the times I blew him off hanging out on weeknights to have a beer. I can only console myself in thinking that we were starting to get together on a more frequent basis.
he died with my keys in his pocket.
dA still lives
I don't think I know anybody who still works here, but apparently my database entries have continued to roll forward these last 18 years. I was reminded of the site from my son looking for cursor packs for windows, and dissuading him from running random executables downloaded from SEO'd websites. (he found some very cute cursors...) I vaguely recall the ML training fiasco, (which may be ongoing,) but I have so little here it doesn't impact me personally. I'm old and salty enough to be of the mindset that if it's posted on the internet, unless very deliberate actions are taken to restrict access, your data (including this public post) will be mined for profit where possible. There is no public space on the internet except where explicitly carved out by governments -- the default is private ownership. The best thing that could happen for ML is establishment of clear liability of model owners for the products of their models since they are derivative works by definition. Maybe this
Devious Journal Entry
so here we are almost six years since my last journal post.
I heard dA got sold... came back wondering if anybody I knew from the early days (hi mccann (https://www.deviantart.com/mccann) ) was still around or active.
and I find myself once again sitting at my workstation in the basement, this time with kid #3 on my lap. I took a bunch of hard drives to the local recycler last week. more iterations, but a lot of the same.
it's been so long since I've shot film, it took me over a year to realize that my local store doesn't even have a developer on-site anymore. I have a romantic notion of shooting B&W again, developing in my basement, and scanning the negatives, but it
The yearly dA post
What a hectic time since my last post.
* my brother got married
* my wife and I found out we were expecting a child
* I got a new job (as a contractor)
* our son, Desmond, was born
* our second cat (Felix) passed away
* I got hired as a full-time employee
Desmond is asleep now, and my wife and a friend are watching Glee from the never-ending netflix / roku font. I'm guessing I have another hour or so until Desmond wakes up and I'm summoned to head to bed.
I'm in my basement going through old hard drives, identifying the dead ones for recycling, reformatting, doing some limited benchmarking, doing some updates, and generally trying to
A year later...
dA is still around. hopefully it's thriving. it's been long enough that I don't know if I'd recognize $mccann if I ran into him on the street. $pinguino is apparently a friend of a guy I went to high school with. $sylderon seems to have disappeared. (I only knew him through his photos.)
I started visiting dA a bit over five years ago when $dv8it was doing some consulting for them. I still have a whiteboard with his plan for reorganizing dA's network here in my basement. I've taken photos of it, but I don't know if I could bring myself to erase it. there are still some things of his that I still haven't completely integrated into my
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